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Archive - June, 2009

Presently Ever-Present

Ever-present, in reference to the children. I don’t mean this as a sentimental nod to togetherness. I mean it in the “climbing in my lap while I pee,” “tapping my hip while I cook,” “clawing at my shirt as I type kind of way.” We are only one week sans preschool and my independence is rocking itself back and forth in a forgotten corner.

I know I will miss these days. Even in my current delirium there are moments when it feels good. We loiter around the house like sleepy cats, doing what we want to do. I tickle Charlie right under his collar bone until he laughs so hard he can’t breathe. Toby sits in my lap while I wash the caked dirt off of his feet with a rag. I love those things, I do. Lately, though, there is that “laying out in the sun was heavenly, but now I’m really blistered” factor stifling my pleasure.

Part of it is the constancy. My mental calendar unfolds into one long row of empty boxes marking the pilgrimage to Fall. The bleak highlights: Tues. Shopping at CostCo! Mon.-Thurs. Swimming Lessons! Fri. Trash Day! I see myself bumbling along, leap frogging from one mediocre affair to the next and hoping I don’t drown in my own guilty ungratefulness.

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